A disarming chance meeting

July 21, 2007

I was having an OK night. Nothing terribly Earth shattering, but a good gathering of acquaintances and friends at a Chuck-E-Cheese type place for adults. Well, I mean that I don’t think Chuck-E-Cheese has a bar area.

Anyhow, after meeting my friends, things were somewhat chaotic, people arriving at different times, people moving with their close group of friends, others gravitating towards the bar area to get food or drinks.

Then the unexpected happened. I saw her, I never thought in a million years I would ever see her again, but given the fact we have some friends in common, it was bound to happen at some point.

It somewhat disarmed me, it was akward and I didn’t know how to act. I tried to completely ignore her, after all the bad things that happened, but later on I went over to talk to her boyfriend and she made some chit chat and I thought that I wish I could get past it. I wish I could have gone up to her and said so much to her, stuff like, “you don’t mean anything to me anymore,” and “My life is so much better now that you are not a part of it,” but what I really wanted to say was that I missed the way things were before it was bad, when we were still friends, before everything got messed up. And it sucked, and my night was ruined from that point on because I don’t like the idea that someone is out there feeling uncomfortable around me.

I shouldn’t give a shit, but I do and I should know that I can’t fix this, but I really really wish I could fix it. I really like her boyfriend, he and I used to be friends, not close friends, but good friends and I think that he may think I only talk to him to get to her. Doesn’t life suck sometimes??

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to film or not to film?

July 14, 2007

the Minolta SRT201 is a cool and sturdy little mechanical camera Last night I was locked in a dark room with two beautiful ladies. No really. Ok so there was another dude there and it happened to be only for a few minutes, but it was fun while it lasted.

Yes, actually it was the dark room in photo class and we were practicing to load film on that little reel that goes in the plastic tank. If you’ve ever tried developing film, then you know what I am talking about.

Sure it looks easy, and it is, but you have to do it in complete darkness and it ain’t quite as easy as it looks in total darkness let me tell you.

Anyhow, I am starting to feel that I hate film. Why would anyone go to the trouble of shooting film when digital is so much easier and gives you similar or better results? I spent the better part of this afternoon in the hot summer fun trying to load a roll onto my Minolta manual camera and I don’t know whether I did it correctly. With my digital SLR I can just look at the results, but I have to shoot a whole roll by Monday and I am not even sure I loaded the film correctly. I docked into the public library for a sec and looked at a cool book by KODAK to reference the subject, it seemed to help, but who the hell knows?

Anyway, back to the girls, they were making small chit chat about how much it costs to do their nails and Earth shattering topics like that. Just to throw them off I looked surprised when one of them said it cost close to $35 monthly to maintain them, I said “That’s the cost of 8 comic books or two tanks of gas” and they looked at me for a sec like I had just landed from another planet. I love to do shit like that